Moving along....

Can you believe I am procrastinating against homework??? Good thing the internet wasn't around when I was in high school or I probably would have failed :) My two grad courses are going ok. One is interesting but lots of work, reading, papers, presentation due 10/29 and midterm paper and also a lesson plan. The other class started rough with a substitute teacher, his wife, who speaks italian orignally and anyone who knows me knows I have hearing troubles and I have a hard time understanding accents. But he showed up this past week and he seems very methodical which I need in a statistics class. A nice girl sits next to me in class too, so that helps :) I don't know her name or what she teaches or anything but we share a hate for Math which maybe is enough to start a friendship. She is newly engaged I know, and I am sure she looks at me wondering with my belly where my ring is and what's the scoop. I think I'll let her wonder a bit longer. I have math homework for that class and since we're going to Maine this weekend I need to get it done by tomorrow. Hopefully the fact that Todd rocks in Math will save me. That guy is amazing I tell you!
The kids are adjusting to school. Matthew has a clod and just passed it to Maria and myself. Of course with disgust she told me this morning that she doesn't want Matthew standing next to her, she doesn't want more cold. Funny. I told her she can't get more you have one or you don't. Matthew's teacher I can tell just adores him! I was so filled with pride when she was telling me about his abilities. And when I ask about his challenges she tells me, we'll teach him, we can help! No comments from the teacher about Maria yet. Which actually is a good thing, considering Maria "stole" some little figurines from her class that I had to make her return. Maria, my sweet girl, rationalizes everything she does just alittle too well.
AS far as the Baby Simonds front, well, I am finally starting to feel better. Once in a while I can feel the flutters in my tummy. I still can't believe that I am pregnant again, this wasn't suppose to happen. Am I good enough to be a mom of three? Will they be healthy? Is autism lurking in there? Will Todd like being a Dad? WIll he see the joys that I do and will the joys be enough to overcome the overwhelmingness I am sure we'll experience? is it a boy or a girl?
The house has had no bites, only one showing the first day it was onthe market. Our first open house is Sunday. The house HAS to sell by December. Very scary. I need as much money from that house, especially with Richard taking all of my alimony, well, trying. The deal that is being offered is $10,500. for college and then $8000. to live off of for two years. How will that work? I can't put Matthew in daycare to work. Todd pays alimony already and has a very high mortgage because of his divorce. I know I live with Todd and it's not Richard's job to support me completely, but $4000. dollars a year is not going to go anywhere. That amount means $76. a week, which wouldn't even be groceries. So the girl who had no moral choice to get divorced in the first place, after supporting him throguh medical school and making the numerous "sacrifice a Dr's wife makes" gets nothing in the end but debt. The house is my only saving grace. I will see a lawyer to see if I could get anywhere in court, the compensentory route. The kicker, Richard coould pay me what I need to just pay expenses, with just his organ playing money, not even delving into his salary. ANd let's not forget the $$ that I owe him from the house sale (which is where the $ right now will come from, I will still owe him $36,000. after I sell the house) The guy has money, he's been living for free basically the past 1.5 yrs at his parent's house. Just seems unfair for me to pay the price for his extra activities for four years.
Summer is over. We did one last trip to the beach on Friday. It wasn't too cold, the kids had a blast. Matthew was far too brave this time, next year for certain we will need a life vest. Autistic kids just have no sense of fear or consequences. Here are the pics :)
Please pray for my buddy Ethan who is having a very important test today, http://www.ethanpowell.com, click on updates at the top. Think good thoughts about my house please too :)